Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Peace Out first trimester.. i think?

12 weeks

$4.99.. what a deal! The hood is detatchable

burp cloths and wipe cover.. kinda neutral?

Hello all. Due to all the confusion with how far along I am.. I'm still never sure based off the ultrasound lady saying you're 10 weeks and 5 days (2 weeks ago) and the doctor saying 9 1/2... and asking me if I was sure I knew the right date of my lmp. I was thinking.. "lady.. do you want me to pull out my lovely family planning calendar in my day planner because I was keeping track!" So yes.. all that to say i'm 12 weeks and bidding my 1st trimester goodbye. (I think.. bc I'm not totally sure how long it is, but that's what I've heard... my pregnancy book does week by week.

I'm growing.. and hopefully tomorrow I will be stronger saying no to the sweets and others food ideas I get! I'd really like to see my old jeans sooner rather than later after this baby!! This morning (bless my dad's heart bc he was the only one home.. mom's back at school with her k-5ers and Ryan at work) I ran down stairs convinced I had grown over night. My dad's thoughts, "Well, you are pregnant." haha.. good answer dad.. seriously simple and justifying!

Lately I have been doing quite a bit of nesting. This unknown part of me is wanting to make a safe...cute.. happy place for this baby. We want so much to be good parents. So here I am... I made some burp cloths... and a travel wipe cover. WOOOO HOOO.. i know.. thrilling!!! Who am I?

I also am including an ADORABLE little boys jacket I found at Ross. I don't think I'm having a boy, but I'll save it and see. If not now, maybe one day... but it was $4.99. I couldn't pass it up.

enjoy my hodgepodge of pics...

Sunday, August 24, 2008

April 17-18, 2009

This date has recently been blocked off in my brain with great excitement and anticipation to come. You might be thinking... I thought she was due in March. Yes, yes I am! However, BETH MOORE is coming to Portland, OR. Who would have thought! Let's just say I will have the breast milk pumped and anything else a baby might need with Daddy for those days! Ry will be on DADDY DUTY!! I am thankful for the ways the Lord is giving me things to look forward to.

When Ryan and I first started dating I joked with him by telling him Beth Moore was my aunt and I showed him this picture. He was like.. "seriously.. if so what's your cousins name because I went to Moody Bible College with her." Yea... he got me.. now I know! This picture was taken in Columbia, SC at one of the best SC BBQ places this side of heaven. Beth went there after her conference... so did we... no family connection.. (obviously and unfortunately!) I admit, I'm a Beth Moore fan!

A little bird told me that someone I know well will be posting soon. I said.. "I'll believe it when I see it," but stay tuned just in case!

Friday, August 22, 2008

We bought tickets...

This morning I did a quick scan of airline prices, and they had jumped up by $10. I started thinking since we will be flying in on Christmas Eve these prices will just keep climbing and not going down as the holidays approach. So, after a long debate in my head and a call to Ryan, we purchased our tickets home for Christmas!!! We will be arriving in Charlotte around 5:00PM and then driving on to Charleston. I doubt we'll make it for the Family traditional Christmas Eve service, however we may make an appearance at my families Christmas Even hot spot, TBonz! We have gone to this restaurant year after year with friends and family following the Christmas Eve service! It's not like it's our families favorite restaurant, but it's pretty much the only place open around 8:30PM on Christmas Eve! It is quite tasty and has of way of hitting the spot!

So, as I always ask you to pray... we still need it... maybe even more after our little ticket investment! Please pray that God allows jobs to mesh well with these plans. We are making use of 2 weekends and any Christmas days off we may have... that's if we both have jobs.. haha! Oh and jobs would be nice as well!

This verse speaks to me on many levels, and I thought I'd share it with you! '

O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD.
You hem me in—behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.
Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,"even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Psalm 139: 1-15

Tuesday, August 19, 2008


I talked to my sweet friend and college roommate (Hannah) today and she told me about this song, Completely. I was able to find it online and I felt the Lord speaking to me through it and bringing the simplicity of his peace to my heart. I say simple, but the effect it has on me is anything but simple!

Throughout the day and in the past weeks I have felt the Lord whispering to my heart, "Jessica, I SO have this all figured out... just be still and know I'm God." I can't tell you how much that verse has comforted my heart in years past. I love how this song talks about letting things go and focusing on things that really matter. I hope this song is a blessing to you as well. It's on the play list below and here are the lyrics!



Ana Laura

The secret of life is letting go
the secret of love is letting it show
in all that I do in all that I say
right here in this moment

the power of prayer is in a humble cry
the power of change is in giving my life
and laying it down down at your feet
right here in this moment

chorus: take my heart
take my soul
I surrender everything to your control
and let all that is with in me lift up to you and say
I am yours and yours alone completely

This journey of life is a search for truth
this journey of faith is following you every step of the way
through the joy and the pain right here in this moment

right here, right now, and for the rest of my life
Hear me say
I am yours and yours alone Completely

Monday, August 18, 2008

I'll be home for Christmas.... Amy Grant version....

A couple weeks ago I gave Ryan a shock when he hopped in my car and turned the key. The CD player was turned up full blast to none other than one of Amy Grant's Christmas CD. I LOVE Christmas music and it can be heard in my house as early as October (if it was up to me). I like to have the occasional Christmas in July CD drive as well.

This time. truth be told I listened to it one day on the way home from work while I was attempting to work through the concept of not being able to go home for Christmas this year. Last year Ryan and I were in Portland with his side of the family. I had a very special time meeting and getting to know my new family. It was so neat to get to experience new family traditions during the Christmas season. The Lord was so good to me. On Christmas day the rain/fog lifted for a brief period of time and we could see Mt. Hood and Mt. St. Helen's from Mom and Dad Epp's living room. To top it off, a light snow began to fall (not common for a Portland Christmas). I felt like the Lord was reminding me of his close presence while so far away from my own family.

So now, with Christmas quickly approaching and a baby a few months after... the thought of plane tickets seemed a bit overwhelming.
However, things appear to be coming together. HOORAY.. Praise Him!! Ryan and I have had some unexpected extra income that will make this trip more feasible! So at 8:37 PM I rejoice with a grateful heart for a hardworking man! He should be home soon from working some extra today. We are still waiting a little longer to see about jobs before we take the plunge. I am praying that the ticket deals don't vanish prior to jobs unfolding.. ugh I hate some decisions!
Some days I feel like I have the faith of mountains with the certainty that both Ryan and I will find great jobs. Other days it seems too overwhelming for me to list so I just pray that God will provide and Jesus will intercede in the places we need. He is..and if I look back on so many things.. he totally has!
I am looking forward to filling in the pages of my praise journal. After all he really has the faithfulness thing down!
Just in case you LOVED our outfits in the picture, we unfortunately are not the owners....... :(

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

tv and self helps

Well we are settled in at my parent's house. It is quite nice I must say! Ryan and I have become TV junkies in the past few days. We are surely enjoying cable TV! So now, it's a treat to watch TLC and even basic channels that are perfectly clear. How wonderful to be able to read the letters on Wheel of Fortune without all the fuzz... and I am extra excited about the upcoming Olympics... esp gymnastics!!!

I have also enjoyed having a dishwasher... seriously I didn't dread doing the dishes last night! I'm so thankful for the opportunity to appreciate things that I have taken for granted the past 21 years living with the rents. I kind of realize how spoiled I really was! My parents were abundantly wonderful parents. With a little baby on my mind and pressing on my bladder in the middle of the night, I realize what a task parenting really will be.

Aside from the Bible, I am starting to buy the baby/parenting books. It's so funny how each stage of life brings on a new slew of "self help" books for me.

In high school it was the "yea right" book... I Kissed Dating Goodbye, Lady in Waiting (still a fav), and Authentic Beauty. College brought Passion and Purity, You Didn't Complete Me (quite possibly the funniest book I've ever read), Searching for God Knows What, and Velvet Elvis. Engagement and marriage brought Love and Respect, The Five Love Languages, Saving Your Marriage Before it starts, Power of a Praying everything, and Becoming the Woman of His Dreams.

Now it is still the marriage books (oh heavens we're so new in this world) and ... What to know when your Expecting, Baby Wise, and at the top of our list will be........The Strong Willed Child. Clearly, Ryan and I won't know where this child is from if it is the easy going, chill, and laid back type!

As much as we would love to think of ourselves as "chill".... we just are not. We both enjoy a good mixture of light conversation and easy going days (who doesn't) but our natural tendency is to be head strong, independent, and fiercely driven with new ideas and daily tasks. This has brought good laughs and some arguments during the past few months! With 2 "strong" personalities making this baby we think we should familiarize ourselves with good ole Dobson in the next few months. My dad has always been encouraging in trying to understand my personality (probably bc we are a lot alike) and trying to guide it for good. He has always said "Be strong willed for Jesus, Jessica, and let that passion be used to bring others to him." So years later, whether this child is as meek as a lamb or as fierce as a lion we pray that he/she will use that sweet (hopefully) personality God is knitting together for his glory.

By the way... Any other "book" recommendations?!