Sunday, May 31, 2009

Titus and his MiMi

This is one of Titus' many bonding sessions with his MiMi! He is trying to mimic her by sticking out his tongue. He has been quite a little flirt this evening! Enjoy... esp you Dad-e-o!

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Nothing could be finer than to be in Carolina....

Hello, from beautiful South Carolina! I'm pumping a bottle getting ready to run out with my Nanny in a few minutes, while she and Titus snooze on the couch until I finish. We are enjoying our time herewith friends and family, but miss Ryan oh so much. I guess it's good to be away for a couple weeks to serve as a reminder to both of us how much the other adds to our life. Of course, another person will never "complete" you as that is a place in our hearts reserved only for Christ and positively things and people were never designed to fill it, however, I am more of the person God has called me to be when he's with me. We keep the other one balanced!

But, it is so nice to be in a familiar place with family and friends. I am thankful I have gotten the privilege to spend time with some friends from high school as well as my college roommate! All such sweet, precious friends. My Nanny has come down for a visit from the upstate. Saturday we will be celebrating her 80th birthday. I cherish time with her more now than ever. Titus is loving the attention he is getting from my parents. Their lives are very busy, but we are trying to spend as much time as possible with one another as we know we only have a week before we go home. It's hard to believe the next time he sees them, he will be 6 months old. Time seems to go by too quickly. I have been very blessed that the first couple months of his life has gone so smoothly (minus my health issues the first month). I wish he could be a newborn for 6 months. All that to say........

He is growing like crazy. He has hit the grow spurt of all times and is now tipping the scales at close to 12lbs. Poor child was slower at the beginning, but in a week has packed it on. I'm thrilled as I want him to thrive and gain just so, but he has lost the "newborn look" and it makes this mama bittersweet. He has been happy as a little lark as long as I keep his tummy nice and full, which is a gift. If I brought my camera cord I will post pictures, but who knows if it's in the suitcase!

I think the sun is out today... it has rained almost every day since I've been here as Portland has apparently been all sunny skies. I give up on the whole weather thing, I should resort to getting a cute pair of rain boots and wearing my hair curly everyday! Such is life! The time I haven't spent outside at the beach, I've made up for eating glorious Southern cuisine. There is nothing like it in the world (at least for my taste buds)!

Friday, May 22, 2009

We miss you Daddy!!

We love you and Miss you Ryan/Daddy!

Love, Jess and Titus

p.s. Titus has gained almost 1lb. according to Mimi's scales since being in SC.... something about that food bulks me up! :)

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Thank you for flying Air Tran!

We made it! It was an adventure and if Titus and I have not already bonded enough we did just a little more! The trip was quite humrous but smooth all the same! Titus did awesome, which was a huge blessing! Monday morning before I left Ryan prayed with me and specifically prayed for strangers to be willing to lend a extra hand. God clearly answered this in multiple ways. On my last flight the pilot of my flight personally went and got my stroller and pushed it to the top of the gate for me. He was so kind and told me how much he missed his 11 month old.

Let's just say I learned that 1) my body is not my own. I mean, I think Paul (hopefully that's right) touched on this but it REALLY took new meaning the moment my baby needed to nurse on an airplane but could not focus enough to do so, therefore causing me to pump. Yes, I pumped 2 bottles on an airplane while sitting in an aisle seat. Thankfully I packed my nursing cover and Titus coroperated to go under the cover with my pump. Hopefully the men around me could not hear it because of the plane's motor. Clearly, sometimes you simply do what you have to do. I comforted myself by telling myself they didn't see anything and I'll never see any of them again. I also found humor in my attempt to use the potty in a tiny airplane bathroom with a baby in my arms. Buttoning jeans back up becomes a big problem really quickly! This was right before Titus had a BLOW OUT and shared the mess with his Mom's shirt. Of course I could not squeeze another shirt for myself in my carry-on so I endured the rest of the trip with my track jacket completely zipped up without a shirt under! Ha.. at least it made pumping easier!

After Titus soaked through his 2nd outfit we made a mad-dash through the ATL airport and made it to our flight just in time. Me sweating..Titus soaked, but we made it! I sat next to the sweetest girls about my age on the flight to Charleston who were so helpful. One of the gal's dad owns one of my favorite sushi restaurants here! My luggage didn't quite make it home due to some "technical difficulties," but praise be to God a little man slept that night! Whew! A bed never felt so good! It's been so nice to see my family and let Titus meet them :) We miss you Ry and love you very much!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Hooray for the Giver!

the sign that came on the bag!

Yesterday evening I heard a firm knock at my back door. I never get knocks at the back/side door unless it's Ryan. He was in class so it kind of freaked me out. I looked out the window and didn't see anyone so I turned down the T.V. to keep an ear out for a "bad guy." I called my father-in-law to see what he thought I should do (this is where I mention the fact that I am a chicken and sometimes jump to conclusions). He said he would stop by and make sure everything was fine! A few minutes later I received a text saying there was a gift outside my back door. I didn't know the number, but opened the door and sure enough the sweetest gift was there for my 2 month old baby! What a fun/sweet surprise. The "text messenger" would not reveal his/her identity, but I have my suspicions! Whoever the sweet giver is.. Thank you so much. What a beautiful heart you/y'all have and we are truly grateful. I read all the books to Titus last night and I think he liked them....he smiled at least as I was reading! The clothes are too cute, and diapers... we can surely use those! Titus definitely enjoyed with 2 month birthday!!

Monday, May 11, 2009

MD 09

I really love the new placemats and centerpiece...

and the book I've always wanted to read to my little boy was even better...

the hanging flower baskets Daddy made was a sure treat...and breakfast in bed started the day off just right! But the best gift of all on my first Mother's Day was.... baby boy in my arms, and of course my man taking the picture :)!!!

Dear Ryan and Titus,

Thank you for making my first Mother's Day so special and relaxing. You both mean the world to me and I thank God every day for giving me the husband he did and granting me the privilege of being a mother. Being a wife and mother has always been my heart's desire...I love getting to do it with you two!

I love you!

p.s. thanks to my mom and mother-in-law... you're Godly example is priceless! I am so blessed.

more pics.......

Friday, May 8, 2009

Food and Exercise...eeek!

When I was in first grade and sick with a typical virus I vividly remember my mom asking me what I wanted to eat. When you were sick in the Moore household, you could pretty well get whatever you wanted! So.. I asked her to make me pigs in a blanket. Well, you guessed it...I threw it up. After 17 years I have never eaten pigs in a blanket again................... until today!!!! My mother-in-law had a sweet family over for lunch with 4 kids and she made pigs in a blanket for the kids. I decided this was my day to have a sweet reunion with the boycotted food! It was D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S! I managed to eat 3 (they weren't whole hot dogs)! I even thought about making them for dinner tonight as well, but I will refrain...I don't want to get sick and have another 17 years go by before I eat them again!

So now you know I'm not on a diet eating like a wild woman, which brings me to the Shred. During pregnancy let's just say I enjoyed my time eating whatever my little heart desired! I didn't go crazy, but I packed on 40 whopping pounds! I thought I was going to keep it under 35, but the last week 5 extra appeared on the scale..awesome. The first 30 disappeared overnight, but the last 10 has liked me a little too much! Since I stink at diets and want to keep up my milk supply, I haven't tried to diet much. I'm down to the last 5 and have a love/hate relationship going..happy to be down to the last 5 but frustrated that my body is a "little different!" Other moms get me right?? The day has arrived when I am attempting to get movin. It's gonna take exercise to firm up those legs and tone that belly! Notice I did not say abs... I'm not even to the point where I'm sure any abs reside under the skin! ha. I'm completely ok with it and totally not looking for affirmation from the Internet. I have a baby who brings me unmeasurable joy and a husband who finds me beautiful so yea all that to say........ Hello Shred. It's a workout video by The Biggest Loser's, Jillian and I've heard it kicks you in the rear. I bought it off amazon for $7.68 and I fearfully peak on the porch each day to see if it has arrived. Fearful bc I am going to start when it comes! I would go walking during my pregnancy, but heavens I have not really worked out in a looooong time. It should be...shall we say...interesting!

Monday, May 4, 2009

Busy week 7

I often make a mental list at the beginning of the day that usually goes something like this..."if I get nothing else done today, I HAVE to do...." Somehow by the time I feed a baby and get his tummy filled up, keep him awake during his awake time and get him to take a nap it's time to feed again. It's just time consuming and I find myself cheating on my house, cooking, laundry etc. Titus is a pretty good little nurser and as regular as taxes going potty, but he's still a pretty little guy which often makes me paranoid and thus trying to get him to nurse longer. Which leads me to week 7...a busy week that involved not a lot of cleaning but lots of time with my baby boy as Daddy was out of town this weekend.

-Titus getting his first cold and going to the doctor (boo). Of course they could do nothing and his mama felt like the typical first time mom. I'm ok with that though. Sometimes it's worth the peace of mind eh?!

-Titus SMILED!! His cousin, Kate, is quite the baby whisperer and can get him laughing! My heart sang seeing that baby boy light up!

At this point Titus likes...

-his paci, his swing, soft blankies (he only gets them in his car seat and swing when mommy is watching), being held, being on a schedule and warm baths.

He not so much likes...

- being taken out of warm baths, getting changed, laying flat while awake, his paci falling out of his mouth and gas (who does).

The past 7 weeks have had a fair share of adjustment type challenges, however it has been the best 7 weeks of my life. I am so grateful for the joy God has given me in the form of a baby with the biggest blue eyes this side of Carolina.

Friday, May 1, 2009

Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom; I made and ate hot meals,
I had unstained clothing,
I brushed my hair every day,
I had quiet conversations on the phone,
I slept as late as I wanted and I slept all night long.

Before I was a Mom;I cleaned my house each day,I
never tripped over toys or forgot lullabies,
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous,
I had never been puked on, pooped on, spit on, chewed on, peed on, orpinched by tiny fingers.

Before I was a Mom; I never thought about immunizations,
I never held a screaming child so the doctors could give shots,
I never looked into teary eyes and cried,
I never felt my heart break into pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt,
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

Before I was a Mom; I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down,
I never sat up late hours of the night watching a baby sleep,
I never got up in the middle of the night to make sure everything was okay,
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

Before I was a Mom; I had complete control of my mind,
my thoughts and my body,
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside of my body,
I didn't know that having something so small could make me feel so important,
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache,the wonderment, or the satisfaction of being a mom.

Before I was a Mom; I never knew that something so small could effect my life so much,
I never knew that I could love someone so much,
I never knew I would love being a Mom,
I didn't know the bond between a Mother and her child,
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much.

-Sharon Twitall