Friday, December 31, 2010

2010 in review!!

I'm pretty sure it feels like 2010 went by in a blink of the eye.

Last year at this time we were preparing for many unknowns. Ryan was about to leave for 3 months for Army training and I was preparing to take on a full-time-working-mom-with-my-husband-away challenges. We went into survival mode and got through it despite countless ear infections and sickness for Titus. In survival mode, you just do it and don't have the time to
think otherwise or ask for help. Although, I never want Ryan to be gone for a deployment or school EVER again, I know that God can sustain me and I can get through it.

Once he came home we enjoyed time together on a fun-fun-fun family vacation. It was a blessing for me to be distracted and work while he was gone to pay for it!!!

Time after the vacation was more challenging. Learning to live together again, a big job disappointment amidst hards church issues in Oregon challenged us in ways we had not encountered before. At times we felt disillusioned and great disappointment. God in his mercy drew us closer to his heart during that time and we grew from it. Now, I'm thankful for the challenges.

Great times were to be had this past fall. Titus has grown and changed in so many ways. Our baby changed to a little boy and is starting to talk in sentences and runs everywhere he goes. He will always be one of my greatest joys. We are so blessed that God saw fit to give him to us!

We started this fall with fresh dreams. Ryan's internship this semester was strictly focused on our family. We took a night a week to talk and think about what the mission of our family will be going forward. We knew "in general" what we longed for, but writing it out was powerful. From that a mission statement was birthed.

We aren't the same as we are this year as we were the last. I am having breakthroughs with anxiety and stress that is evidence of God working in my life as never before. Although our life is not near perfect, we have grown. We still have things to work on, job unknowns, etc etc, but I've seen that no matter what we go through in the future, God will go with us. His presence in my life is sustaining and will give us what we need each day.

I pray 2011 is a year of great joy and blessing for each of you. It's such a comfort to know that although we change to another year, God stands outside the calendar!

Friday, December 24, 2010

Merry Christmas

Sit back, slow down and savor the goodness of the season. The God of the Universe came as a helpless baby to redeem an utterly helpless people from the pit of hell.

Let us not rush or be overwhelmed with life... the cooking, the clean up, the worries of today or the fears of tomorrow. After all, it never was about us in the first place! For one day (and preferably more) may we savor the gift of love God gave us and give it back to one another.

Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.

Luke 2:14

Merry Christmas!

The Epp Family

Thursday, December 9, 2010

21 months


(this mustache came off with one wipe.. in case you're wondering :)

I can't believe my little boy is almost 21 months (Saturday). Crazy! Titus and I have had a blast this past month. I have so enjoyed being home with him 24/7 and he has become my little buddy during the days. I really like the kid he is becoming. He loves people and never meets a stranger. He loves to sing, dance and wrestle with Daddy.

Titus has made big strides in his obedience this month along with talking. He hasn't been throwing as many tantrums and yelling no. PTL! Oh my, my favorite thing in the entire world is when he comes up to me and says, "Hi Mommy" and plants one on my lips. I also love when he will answer my questions. It makes the guessing a bit easier. He is amazed by Santa and lets out a big "HoHoHo" whenever he sees anything resembling. He also loves dogs and calls him "dogdog. His newer thing is calling everything that looks similar to a horse, a "yo." Not sure where "yo" came from, but my guess is something from yeehaw? He calls donkey, camels, cows, horses etc. a "yo."

Titus has also been quite the character. He recently has been coming up with various tricks to delay nap time or bed time. His tricks include saying juice, eat eat, more, rock. All of them usually don't work except for rocking. That gets me every time and thankfully, after a few minutes and songs he will lay down peacefully. He doesn't mind if I keep rocking though! ;)

He is independent and prefers to "walk walk" in the stores with me. Sometimes this works and other times, not so much! He loves to drag his little potty into the bathroom and grab his pretend phone and pops-a-squat on it. He especially likes to do this when Ryan or I are using the bathroom. I know, all the family secrets here!

He is beyond adorable and so much fun. I think this is my favorite stage.. again!

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Rookie Mom Wednesday


Welcome to Rookie Mom Wednesday at Under My Umbrella. It is Wednesday right?? Let me tell you my one of my rookie mom dilemmas. I tend to be slightly overprotective and overreactive. For instance, when Titus was 1 and the doctor found his iron was a little low, I bawled on the phone with the nurse. Bawled. Poor nurse. I'm sure she wasn't prepared to handle all my hormones that day. I really am not a big crier, but this one got me. Maybe it's because I was always really careful with what he ate, and didn't understand why and therefore thought something was reallllly wrong.

Not sure if I will ever outgrow this whole parinoid mom thing, but either way, I'll always try to take as good of care of this little guy as I can! One of the things that means is trying to find healthy food for him to eat.

There just one dilemma. We aren't living the "Whole Foods" lifestyle. Granted, Trader Joe's helps a ton, but the reality of affording ALL organic meats and veggies just can't happen right now. Anywho, I really like this substance of such for it's healthiness and cheapiness.

I now introduce you to Quinoa. It' s a type of grain that's high in fiber and pro
tein. Also it can be found organic and is affordable!

Here is my fav recipe to use Quinoa with from All Recipes. It's called Turkey and Quinoa Meatloaf. (I cut the salt and brown sugar in half and use ketchup instead of tomato paste).


  • 1/4 cup quinoa
  • 1/2 cup water
  • 1 teaspoon olive oil
  • 1 small onion, chopped
  • 1 large clove garlic, chopped
  • 1 (20 ounce) package ground turkey
  • 1 tablespoon tomato paste
  • 1 tablespoon hot pepper sauce
  • 2 tablespoons Worcestershire sauce
  • 1 egg
  • 1 1/2 teaspoons salt
  • 1 teaspoon ground black pepper
  • 2 tablespoons brown sugar
  • 2 teaspoons Worcestershire sauce
  • 1 teaspoon water


  1. Bring the quinoa and water to a boil in a saucepan over high heat. Reduce heat to medium-low, cover, and simmer until the quinoa is tender, and the water has been absorbed, about 15 to 20 minutes. Set aside to cool.
  2. Preheat an oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C).
  3. Heat the olive oil in a skillet over medium heat. Stir in the onion; cook and stir until the onion has softened and turned translucent, about 5 minutes. Add the garlic and cook for another minute; remove from heat to cool.
  4. Stir the turkey, cooked quinoa, onions, tomato paste, hot sauce, 2 tablespoons Worcestershire, egg, salt, and pepper in a large bowl until well combined. The mixture will be very moist. Shape into a loaf on a foil lined baking sheet. Combine the brown sugar, 2 teaspoons Worcestershire, and 1 teaspoon water in a small bowl. Rub the paste over the top of the meatloaf.
  5. Bake in the preheated oven until no longer pink in the center, about 50 minutes. An instant-read thermometer inserted into the center should read at least 160 degrees F (70 degrees C). Let the meatloaf cool for 10 minutes before slicing and serving.

Nutritional Information open nutritional information

Amount Per Serving Calories: 286 | Total Fat: 13.3g | Cholesterol: 126mg


Monday, December 6, 2010

Miscellany Monday

Miscellany Monday @ lowercase letters

(1) Titus has been pretending to be a baby lately. He gets on the ground and crawls around with this sneaky look on his face. Then he crawls to Ryan or I and wants to hold him like a baby. It's hilarious.. to me at least. But, I'm his mom and don't we moms think everything our kid does is amazing? I do at least! His best bud, Simon, just started crawling, and Titus just started doing this so I'm wondering if there is a correlation. Titus LOVES Simon.. his parents, his dog, his crawling.

(2) I've entered the 21st century with an Iphone. On Friday, I decided to put our IPods on Craigs List just to see how long they would take to sell. My phone was blowing up with texts, calls etc for these 2 ipods. We sold that night and were ready to make the IPhone commitment. Love is all I can say. I've gone app wild and wow, how did I ever make it without my app with the cheapest gas in town, or my oh so fab vintage picture editing automatically, or a nutritional guide on my phone for every chain restaurant you can imagine?! My personal fav is helping Ryan and I sync our lives. I take our phones and we press them together and can trade any info deemed worthy. It's called Bump! Here's to not over scheduling and trading calendars. And yes, we may even facetime in our own living rooms with each other.

(3) We have hopeful-end-of-semester-blues. After a drill weekend right at the end of Ryan's
semester, we're ready for a sweet date in Charleston! :)

(4) This winter feels a bit easier for me. Maybe it's because I was on a mega dose of vitamin d at the end of the summer, maybe it's because we think this may be our last winter out west. It could also be because we have a trip coming soon. Who knows but I'm grateful! Granted, I still miss the sun (more for Titus not getting outside), but it doesn't feel like a weight on my chest sucking the life out of me!

(5) Titus is fascinated by Santa. Anytime he sees one, he lets out a "HoHoHo." Fascinated, but he doesn't want to get too close. We took him to the mall and he sat on his lap, but had a look like "I want to cry really hard" after 5 seconds. Pictured below is the president of Western in his Santa best!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Flash Mob..

Have you seen the Flash Mob dances? I could only wish to be in one smacked dab in the middle of Time Square, but since that won't be happening anytime soon, I'll just watch them on youtube. I recently saw this gig and thought it was fun. I think my favorite part is seeing the cute elderly people in it. Something about a little grandpa singing is heart out is endearing to me!

Ya know what I really want to hear about? I want to hear about the person in the food court who

1. Thought the return of Christ was happening and these random people were angels in disguise.


2. Thought they were suppose to join in and stood up and started singing. I would probably be the genius to think both!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Rookie Mom Wednesday


Welcome to Rookie Mom Wednesday! Perhaps each Wednesday, every other, or possibly just because it seems appropriate on a Friday, you'll here some random mama thoughts. In this case, it's basically Thursday! Want to hear my catchy slogan that all blog buttons MUST have. "Lessons, tips, and more from the mud puddles." If that doesn't sound like a pair of mom jeans, I don't know what does, but alas, here I am!

First off, here's the secret (that's not really a secret) about me. I


I like things organized. Honestly, I just function better. Everything has it's place and some things even have a label. Well, not everything is organized... there are certain places in our house that are "free spaces." Some drawers, the computer room and parts of the basement have been deemed ok to be messy.

Today, as I was trying to do some fun Holiday baking, I decided to be a little rebellious and give Titus a Buckeye and let him run around with it.

A buckeye is a ridiculously fattening peanut-butter-thing-dipped-in-chocolate. Heaven. The giving to a 20 month old who's running around the house was a Bad idea. See.. here.

Then I remembered why I initially thought that was a bad idea and put him here. In this picture, he is actually begging me for "more." He only got one.

We continued through nap and into the afternoon. Yay, another project before Daddy comes home. I guess I just thought we had to do all our Holiday baking since it's the first day of December. Maybe I was the one that needed the nap!

So we started making sugar cookies and decorating them. I set up little stations and quickly realized that 20 month olds don't do stations. Oh yea.

Then the light went off. I stopped to myself and thought,

"YOU are going to miss this moment of having fun with your child.. like having A LOT of fun if you obsess over the mess. So what if sprinkles go everywhere, there's a broom for that. So what if you ruin ONE nights dinner by letting your child have a cookie and lick some icing, it's not the end of the world. Embrace the moments.. NOW."

In that moment, I let it go and felt myself becoming a little more laid back! Our sugar cookies looked ridiculous, but they were yummy and the finger prints over them were quite cute. I will probably find sprinkles for months to come, but I taught my child the joy of licking his fingers. We made a mess and even Titus was looking around and saying "mess," but we had fun and laughed a lot!

The best part was that Daddy came home and saw us having fun and offered to help clean up! Score!

(The picture above does not show the mess, but if you look in the right corner, you may get an idea of little red dots... those would be sprinkles that covered our floors).

Monday, November 29, 2010

Grateful for God's Protection

Played by the FBI. Have you heard about it? If not, you can read about it here. I could hardly believe it when Ryan and I heard the news discussing a dummy bomb set to go off at the Annual Christmas Tree lighting just a short distance from where we live...all in the name of jihad. I even thought this year how we should go, but decided bedtime for T and a large crowd outside wouldn't be the best idea.

It is a reminder that threats are all around us....still. It was a reminder of God's protection in ways we can't see and situations that are out of our control. It quickly puts things in perspective when something completely off my radar could change so many individuals lives so quickly. The fact that this individual was reminded multiple times that it was not to late to get out as many families and children would be there makes me want to vomit. The fact that he didn't want anyone to leave unharmed.. either dead or injured is beyond sick.

Oh Lord, may we look to you as the one true God grateful for your protection. The God who doesn't pervert the sanctity of life all in the name of religion, rights or gaining favor. You are true and your ways are good!

Once again, I'm thankful.

Sunday, November 28, 2010



I think one of my favorite sounds is hearing my child belly laugh. It means they are healthy, having fun, not in trouble (most of the time), safe, and content. In those moments it seems all is right in the world. On a day where T was not feeling great and therefore a bit more work, I came across the picture. You're so worth the tantrums, mild heart attacks you've given me for trying to climb up or out of your high chair, and for all the tricks you try to play when it's nap time or bed time (more eat, eaaaat, rock, more rock). I'm thankful.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

a few of my fav things..

Who doesn't love Oprah's fav things show?! I sure do, and of course could only dream of going, but for now.. these are a few of my fav things.... recession/budget/seminary edition.

1. H&M skinny jeans. This is a brand spankin' new one for me, butI love the cut and fit. Want to hear the best part on the skinnies?! $19.95. I usually go for Vigoss skinny jeans, but these have taken the cake this year!

2. Nordstrom Rack. I actually love Nordstrom, but because I can only afford sharing their grilled cheese kids meal and tomato soup (which is delish) with my 20 month old, I opt for the Rack. PS.. The rack in on groupon in Seattle and will be in Portland Monday (you can use the coupon anywhere though and buy in either city).

3. Chipotle. YUM YUM YUM. I never thought Moe's would have competition, but alas this blows Moe's out of the water. The best part to the goodness is splitting a chicken burrito with my husband, chips, and rice/beans with cheese for T and we walk out spending under $10!!! Their medium salsa is spicy and heavenly. Yes, Please!!

4. Ikea napkins. I love them and get a fun color/print for each season. It's the little things right?

5. Burlap. I love to decorate with it. No joke. It's so cheap and is 100% my style in decorating. This year our kitchen table has burlap trees and 2 tones of burlap for a runner thanks to the ShantyChic idea (although mine is probably a bit different bc I don't have a ruffler foot).

6. Distressed furniture. I love the look, price and more than anything.. DIY projects. They give me a rush. One of our 2011 projects is building Titus' first bed. We bought an old door from a yard sale and will be stripping, painting and creating a headboard, footboard and frame for it. I'm thinking a vintage bicycle theme will work or a rugged cowboy look will be our inspiration. What do you think would fit for our wild man?!

7. Obviously, you know TJ's is a fav along with the prices of dreaded Winco, but for a non-seminary budget date.... I LOVE THE CHEESECAKE FACTORY. Everything from their apps to dessert (cheesecake) is delish.

8. Bath and Body hand soap. Is it bad that I really love to have a different one for every season. It keeps me inspired to keep my hands and house clean! :)

9. Forever 21 earrings. Watch out Charleston gals, you will love these earring deals when the new F21 hits! :)

10. These boys. One keeps me sane and the other on my toes, but both bring me so much joy.
Happy Favs! :)

Monday, November 15, 2010


I was slightly bummed this year. I didn't know where to take a box for Operation Christmas Child. This would be the first year I haven't done this since I was little. I knew it was time for the drop-off to happen so I decided to search for drop-off centers. (duh? The thought came slow for me). A church 10 min away is collecting. We actually visited there a couple months ago. I'm not quite sure how I miss the OCC stuff there.

I began to think about what it Titus didn't have anything for Christmas. What if he didn't have toys, lots of food or even a Mom or Dad? 2 things happened in my heart...

1. I knew we would pack as many shoe boxes as we could and I would never let inconveniences dictate our giving again.
2. For the first time ever as a mother, there was a longing for a child far, far away.

The first can be easily solved, the second will take lots of time and prayer and money. The last is something a seminary family is lacking and with ministry on the horizon, it doesn't look promising. I could only count such a privilege to one day adopt and know if this is what God calls us to, he has already carved the way.

BUT... for this Christmas.. we can give it away.

*** Ryan just saw this and said veggietales??? Even though we are parents and love Veggietales, Bob won't be singing! :)


Friday, November 12, 2010

Christmas cards

In our house, Christmas is in full swing. We are celebrating with Ryan's family a bit early this year, so I've jumped on the ball with the gift buying, and Holiday fun. I'd say putting up decor is early, but we all know it happens every year! After almost 3 years of marriage, Ryan loves it just as much as I do.

Last week we took our family pics... with a tripod! :) It was the easiest and most budget friendly thing to do this year. We went with the one that Titus was actually looking in the right direction. I guess a smile was too hard to bargain with when my Ryan had to be sitting in class 15 minutes later! I was trying to hit it before the rain and I think we made it by the skin of our teeth! :)

So... the next thing is naturally cards! I've recently used Shutterfly quite a bit. With various groupons and promotional codes, you can't beat the savings. My love for all things pictures has had fun. My only struggle now is picking the right card.

Classic?? I love being able to add a variety of pics with our initial in the middle!

Christian?? I love being able to shine focus on Christ during the season, while enjoying a eye pleasing card!

Cute??? Multiple pics, a little funk and my fav colors.. this might be it!

Hopefully I'll decide and mail those babies out before 2011!!

Thanks to Shutterfly for letting me blog on Christmas cards this year and put my moola on something else! :)

Thursday, November 11, 2010

20 months

His.. Mom, are you seriously still taking pictures of me... face.

happy boy!

"weeehaw" (as he says)

What a fun, fun, fun age this is with a gracious plenty of redirecting! Since I forgot to post a 19 month deal.. I'll catch up with 20. I promise, I won't do this for like month 52!

Wow, he is changing every day and I am loving my extra time with my wild man. He keeps me laughing and on my toes. He is my little shadow, but I don't mind. I wouldn't have it any other way!

The things he comes up with in his little lisp voice cracks me up. His new thing is saying his name. He will sometimes (when of course he's in the right mood) say his whole name. Of course it sounds more like.. "Ti-ssss rin Ep." My favorite thing he is into at the moment is singing and puckering up those lips. He goes straight in for our lips too! He loves to sing and we nearly killed ourselves laughing when he dead-on hit this higher note at the end of one of his shows on tv. He was so proud and we applauded his singing. I'm hoping he turns out to have his Daddy's voice!

He also likes to pull out all his toys and look at them. He esp is enjoying his Little People sets and tools. Whenever he sees a donkey or horse, he says "eeeey oooo." Not sure about that one! He is quite obsessed with animals and his stuffed animals. I am enjoying his interest in playing with his toys though and giving me a break here and there.

Homeboy still has his opinions and is a work in progress on the sharing thing. It's a very humbling process for the Mom. If only I could snap my fingers and make him a gracious, kind, and compassionate little gentleman. Mrs. Duggar (thanks, 19 kids and counting) gave me some inspiration on what to focus on with my boy.. attentiveness (I want his eyes), obedience and self control! We are all such a work-in-progress and I see that in myself and child! I'm hoping some things are just a phase, although I don't want the hugs and kisses to end! ;)

What a joy Titus is to me and his Daddy. I am loving this season and focusing on doing lots of family fun Holiday things! So far, we've started our chocolate advent calendar (early, I know) and singing "Away in the manager" while he holds his Little People baby Jesus. He can't quite say Jesus, so he has shortened it to "Jez." I nearly cried with joy when I heard him say that. I'm sure Jesus doesn't mind the shortened toddler version of his name too...

Happy 20 months sweet boy and Happy Veterans Day to his Daddy!

Monday, November 1, 2010

Happy Halloween

We have been celebrating fall with pumpkin break, pumpkin butter, apple cider, a pumpkin patch and pumpkin carving. It's been fun. Maybe I've felt the need to completely celebrate fall in October because we are planning to start Christmas in a couple of weeks. I do love Thanksgiving, but with traveling we want to enjoy Christmas as much as possible. I know Titus will be so so excited this year to see his tree in his room etc etc.

Back to Halloween. Titus had a couple of costumes. The sock monkey was my fav, but Ryan didn't love it so we picked up a shark costume at Old Navy when they went on sale. Gotta love a first born child. I know, I know.

I was starting to think this shark costume gave my child some alter ego because he was a piece of work the 2 times he wore it. Thankfully, once his buds arrived at our Halloween party, he turned off the shark attack. It was a good thing he did. Ryan and I decided to join in the fun and dress up as a beach bum (I) and a surfer (Ry). Good times. I think my favorite part was hearing my little guy attempt to say Trick-or-Treat. It sounded more like "tri-tre."

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Slowing down

The summer in Portland seems to fly by. Its gorgeous and there is a million things to do to enjoy the beauty of summer. Fall seems to slow down. This fall has seem to fly by, but it's slowing down at just the right time. Ryan will hopefully start orders here in December (Oh Lord, you know) and we will stay put until his long term job opens. I think thats the plan at least. For me, I'm slowing down for the holidays and will be once again, a full time stay-at-home mom.

In the past month, I've been reminded that although my job was awesome for the season, it's time for me to be at home with my boy. I feel such peace in this, although the future seems less calculated. I have felt God asking me, "Do you realllllly trust me, Jessica." Time and time again, we have seen God move when things have felt uncertain. He always proves himself faithful, true, good, and our hope. Although things don't always go my way, I've seen the beauty of walking and abiding in him.

So as we slow down this fall, there are so many things I'm looking forward to.. (doesn't sound slow).... carving pumpkins, Thanksgiving, Black Friday Christmas shopping, decorating our house for Christmas, time with family reading the Christmas story, cookie baking, visiting family, the Christmas Eve service... and of course seeing Christmas through my little boys eyes.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Miscellany Monday!

Miscellany Monday @ lowercase letters

1. The rain is back. Basically this means that there will be 95% rain with a few beautiful days mixed in through the end of June. The thought feels overwhelming, but alas I will embrace it with my boots, hat, and story time at the library while we are still here. My (once again) doctor prescribed mega therapeutic vitamin d so that probably won't hurt anything!

2. Titus loves to scream "no" He used to say it sweetly, but not as much anymore. We have been telling him not to say it like that so you know what... he started saying "nop." Oh my.. how does a 19 month old put that together.

3. My theory is that every parent needs a strong willed child. If they don't, I think there's a chance they will start to think other ppl are bad parents, don't discipline.. or (gasp)... they might get the parental cockiness thing going. So if you are like me.. and your child has a strong will.. thank God because that will -will- keep you humbled and real. This is me speaking from the mother-of-all-strong- willed disasters at a Halloween party. My little shark was out to bite his parents! (Yes, we switched Titus' costume to be a shark). Ryan is going to be a surfer and I a beach bum!

4. Praise Jesus, that wild shark is like him mama and loves to sleep in. Granted, he normally doesn't sleep in until 9:00 everyday, but today he is still fast asleep! He makes up for it when he is awake though!!!

Saturday, October 23, 2010

3rd Annual Roloff Farm Trip

3 years ago I was 20 weeks pregnant looking forward to my little pumpkin on the way...The next year, my little pumpkin was as cute as he could be and I loved getting to take him to The Roloff Farm for our first year as a little family!

This year, we had another great time with our growing pumpkin. He is such a gift to have and has blessed our family so so much!

We headed to our Annual Family Roloff Farm pumpkin patch. I love going. Each year we grab a fallish drink (pumpkin shake or pumpkin spice latte), bugerville and head out to the Roloff Farm. This is where the Little People Big World family live. This weekend Ryan was supposed to be in class ALL day. Not fun. However, 3 days before he got an e-mail saying the class was cancelled. Not really what we were hoping for since all his books were bought etc etc. Thankfully, he will be doing an independent study now and it freed up a weekend together! So all that information to say.. we now had a day we could head to the pumpkin patch. Unfortunately, it was raining. Bummer. We went anyways and the skies opened up when we arrived. Thank you Lord! It also kept the crazy crowds away and we were able to talk more to the family members. They were really nice.. esp the grandparents and son, Jeremy. Good times!

Monday, October 18, 2010


I've been backing up my computer to an online storage for the just-in-cases in life. It will probably take the next 15 years to get it all on there, but my computer has been out and open a lot. The other morning I found Titus checking his blogs. I'm sure he's seen me do this a time or two. My exact words were, "Freeze." Instead of worrying that he would push my lovely computer off in excitement and grabbing it off, I ran and took a picture. Smart Mom. Thankfully, the computer and I lived through it. I'm going to have to keep an eye out for this one..

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

waiting. again.

**I just noticed my opening paragraph got lost with the picture uploading...whops.. here is is again! :)

The long story is long to this whole "waiting" thing. The short story is.. excited, waiting, disappointment, bummed, still waiting + major praying. Still in season "i am so over," yet God has reasons beyond my understanding. Amidst the waiting, God's faithfulness has been so evident to give us some great times in Charleston and Ryan at a training, a zoo trip and just moments when a sweet hug and kiss from a wild man couldn't mean more. He has also been healthy, which is SUCH an answer to prayer and his iron has held strong! YAY!

We are waiting for Ryan's job. Little development except the start date got pushed back. The Army can do things like that. It's the Army. Thankfully, he still has a job here. My job will be changing too due to having to pay for T to go now. It doesn't feel like great timing, but since there has been SO many closed doors, we know it's God. He's at work.

A common thing in our hearts has been prayer. Like over and over. We are "praying until we pray" and trying to take in the lessons we have in the waiting time. To be honest, it feels like we've been waiting for 2 years, as Ryan has been ready for a while to make career changes. I know God is not surprised by this so we have to trust that his ways are higher than our own.

In reality, I am so thankful we are NOT waiting on some really life threatening things. Sometimes I just have to sit back and count my blessings and we are doing that in prayer.

So.. Maybe I should just re-arrange that list despite my frustration with "today" to be once again..waiting.. and excited.

Excited to see that God is working things for our good, that he's so close, that we can have a great fall, joyous Christmas and new start to the year despite our wishes to be doing something else. Savior, YOU can move my mountains.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

When flying with a toddler remember..

- you will be completely humbled by the end...for instance...
- you will get more "I'm so glad I'm not you" looks than you can count.
- you will use multiple forms of bribery and may find yourself making up songs about lollipops and listening. Walt Disney would be impressed.
- you will quickly realize that the itty bitty changing table in the bathroom is not made for dirty diapers.
- you may be completely grossed out when you have to use the bathroom while your adorable toddler stands in front of you and proceeds to stick his hand in the trash.. all while hitting some turbulence.
- you will think you have died and gone to heaven when that frustrated child falls asleep. Bliss.
- you will be sweating and haggard looking while running through the airport to catch your next flight.
- you will wonder why( after all this) your child bites your chest on your last flight since he has never bit you before.
- you will be thankful for the Christian lady sitting next to you, but secretly hope she would let you doze a few minutes since you were just bit and your child has fallen asleep.
- you may think about what an amazing story Christian lady has, although you may also brainstorm inventions on making flying easier.
- you may feel like a jerk.
- you may be so exhausted, relieved and emotional about seeing your own parents although the thought of where's my trophy may cross your mind?!
- you may call your husband and thank him that moving plans are in the mix while having a nervous stomach as the what ifs flood your mind.... I mean.. I'd lose any leftover marbles if I had to do this with two kids?!
- You may think.. it WAS worth even though that sleeping toddler did sleep and wet through.. on you...
- You may think that no one loves your toddler as much as you do..

And.. we may wish we had a toddler to fly with one day when our kids are grown and out of the house...

Yes, it was worth it. Praying round 2 goes a bit better! ;)